What are you doing with yourself now?
“What are you doing with yourself now?” It’s a question I used to dread!
I dreaded it because I always felt like I had to explain myself or live up to other peoples standards.
I started working at 18 and spent 7 years in my first part-time job, don’t get me wrong the job was invaluable to me, paid well and I worked with lovely people but it always felt like a means to an end. When I was in college I was doing Arts to get into the teaching conversion course – another means to an end. When I got into the Hibernia course I was finally training to be a teacher but there was going to be a long road after that and everyone would ask “But sure teaching is an awful hard job to get into, it’ll be years before you get a permanent job!” again it felt like another means to an end. I decided to skip subbing here at home and try to get my dip done ASAP in London – another means to an end. After two years I came home, back to square one and feeling utterly useless and like I had accomplished feck all career wise. It was such a long battle and I had the head down, so determined to get where I was going that by the time I lifted my head up, I had been going round in circles and the job I had trained and worked so hard to get was even further afield than when I started out. The stuffing had been knocked out of me and the wind taken from my sails, it was time to get off the merry-go-round, take time out and reassess where I wanted to go.
I knew I wanted to help people but I wanted to take my passions and interests into account too and I have always felt I am more of a leader than a follower so I knew running my own business was something I could really throw myself into and it was something I often thought about! Next decision, what the hell was I going to set up a business in? I was thinking along the lines of counselling or psychotherapy and when I started researching courses out there, that is when I discovered Play Therapy, something I had never heard of in my life. My gut instinct screamed, this is for me!! I got into teaching because I wanted to educate children and influence their lives in a positive way. I instantly felt a strong affinity with Play Therapy, all my research lead me to see it is one of the best available therapies and holistic interventions. It was something I would have hugely benefitted from when I was growing up and because I still really wanted to work with and help children, there was nothing else for me.
At the same time, I decided to start a blog merryme.ie documenting the things that made me happy. That lead me to the question one day while brushing my teeth, “If I were to do a masterclass down the line, as most successful bloggers do eventually, what would I do?” the word “Life Coach” I thought to myself people often comment on how easy it is to talk to me, how they find it easy to open up to me and that I’m a good listener!! I nearly choked on my toothbrush with the excitement! You see that’s what happens when you make a decision that rightly resonates with you to the core, you just know this is a step further towards your life’s purpose. Straight up to the sitting room with me, phone out and I started looking up Coaching courses, the rest is history!
Personal Development is my ultimate passion because it saved my life. Mentally and Spiritually. It saved my soul from being crushed and from a life full of negativity and unfulfilled potential. And I consider myself honoured and blessed to work and live out my passion through my business.
So, when someone asks me “What are you doing with yourself now?” I don’t dread answering the question anymore, I speak passionately about it because I love what I am doing, it makes all the difference in the world!